Grown

I feel a little different.

I feel like since I got together with Faith, something changed in me. I don’t know if he caused the changes, or it’s just a coincidence, but I’m loving it.

I used to be one angsty teenager, hahaha. Growing up, I experienced a short period of peace many, many years ago, before returning to turbulence of depression. Ever since my exchange programme, I feel like the peace has returned.

It’s not easy being so far away from him, not being able to hug him on bad days. Somehow, though, it allows me to rebuild my foundation and outlook on life. Well, that, and probably philosophy and political thought lessons -.-”

We talk about things that matter, and we haven’t quarrelled. Agreed to disagree on certain things, maybe, but not outright quarrels. It might be because of the distance, it’s not so easy to quarrel when you’re so far away from each other and is always missing the other party :p I think, though, if it’s him, I’d be fine. I’d be willing to talk.

Time flies. In a few days’ time, it would be exactly half a year since we got together. Yeah, half a year is nothing, but it sure does feel like it has been much shorter than that. We’ve barely started!

Ok on another note. Faith commented saying that my previous blog post sounded so violent with fighting and all. As I laid in bed, my brain started thinking up random thoughts. One thing led to another, and well this is how it goes: Fighting doesn’t really have to be violent. I mean, when I said ‘fight’, it’s just to get my spirit up and enthusiasm ready, like an athlete ready for a competition. Like…fighting monsters in RPG to gain experience to level up. That’s not violent, that’s just the way it is to get stronger. Wait, what about the monsters? It’s violent to them. Is it ethical to kill them in games to level up? Oh no!

Moral dilemma ensues before I drifted to sleep -_-

Love,
Hope

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Boredom Beware!

BIG day tomorrow. But for now, BLOG 😀

I’m somehow managing. It’s been one of the busiest semesters I’ve ever had, and yet also one of the most manageable ones. I’m in a good state of mind, I make new friends in different classes, and I can always talk to Faith when I need someone to talk to.

He makes it so easy for me to love him, even despite the distance.

You know the saying that goes like if you love someone, you got to let him go? Bullshit. If you love someone, you work hard to make it easy for him to be happy. You can’t make someone happy, but you can work to create conditions that make it easy for him to be happy. Yeah. Just a thought.

After all that I wrote about the dangers of LDR, the threats of mistrust and miscommunication (or the lack thereof) and all, I identified a new potential enemy! It can be even more deadly, or at least as debilitating as the rest of them baddies, but it comes so silently you won’t know it’s there until it’s too late. Except if you continue to anticipate it and stomp it at the first signs of appearance. I’m talking about boredom.

Nah, I’m not bored (yet, at least), but I was just thinking that boredom is deadly. If you see it coming, then you can anticipate it and do things differently.

Haha, I’m kind of seeing this whole thing as a war of me and him on one side and these baddies on the other. We’re winning by far 😛 Arrogance will be the cause of downfall, so eh, continue to screen for potential problems and remain vigilant.

But I think I’ll go to bed now 🙂 BIG day tomorrow, and I have to wake up early with my brain as alert as possible (foreseeing the need for coffee!)

Love,
Hope